I think I can, I think I can ...
Applied for a job a few weeks ago and got asked to come for an interview. The first job I applied for. So after all my 'I've been a stay-at-home mum for so long I must be a bozo' comments, I guess it may not be all true! Had the interview late last week and got offered it on Monday. Am in a bit of shock. It is a two day a week job as a children's librarian working with 5-12 year old kids.
I feel like my whole life is about to get turned upside down and we will all have to readjust. I'm trying to play it cool because, hey, don't all these other mums do this? But in reality my head is spinning trying to process it all - childcare, transport - let alone actually doing the job itself.
But it feels like the right time. After almost 13 years at home and three years of study I'm ready for the new challenge.
However, I do feel a little that I'm deserting my children. I'm sure that's not rational at all, since most of them are already at school and they will be well cared for when I'm not at home. But after being with them and being available for so long it is a major shift in my thinking. I don't know how mums do it after 12 months maternity leave. Maybe the length of time makes it feel really strange to be doing something different.
So I just need to churn out about 5000 words for uni in the next three weeks and start a new job and ... arrgh ... what am I doing?!!!
Stay tuned for further instalments of 'My life Goes Crazy' - a new show by Jenny in 2011.