Last week Rowan was away speaking on a conference for the uni ministry. It is the biggest week of the year for him and he leaves tired and gets home wrecked. If anyone looks at a speaker at a convention and thinks that it is very glamourous, it's far from it. Behind the scenes are weeks/months of agonising reading and preparation.
In 17 years of marriage, I've rarely seen Rowan go off to work feeling happy with what he's prepared for a talk. There are always concerns like, 'I could have said more if I had more time' or 'Is what I've prepared going to be easy to understand?' or 'Have I covered every aspect?'. At one level I don't think this is a bad thing - it always motivates him to work harder on what the Bible actually says and think carefully about the people he is speaking to.